I just got back my newswriting test...
I got the last in the class...

I feel terrible...
But yet I'm feeling nonchalant at the same time... Its as though I expected it...

Maybe I've reached the peak of my depression that it couldn go any further...

.. I dont feel like talking to anybody... I dont feel like doing anything...

I just feel like crying... But the tears wont come out... You ever felt that the whole world was just to high for you?

Ever felt that your dreams are to far to reach... That you just lay down and cry.. cause crying is all you can do...

Most likely, I'll be the last for DVPA too... and then I'll be last for everything...


I cant even sniff a B now.. and people are asking for As...


Ms Hui jus said that she was inviting people to go to Queensland for a DMC study trip... She asked for out opinions... When she came to me.. I jus shrugged...
I wont be able to go anywayz...

Its only for people who do well...

I'm the bottom of the class..

I'm the bottom of the class... for once in my entire life... I'm the bottom of the classs.....


I feel like killing myself... but I cant...


maybe I'll just return back to my introvert self...